As the school year winds down and we all try to focus on summer fun, the thought of next fall surely creeps into your mind every now and then. Who will be your teacher(s)? Will any friends be in your class? Where will be your locker? Or as a parent, when will we do back to school shopping? Where's the bus stop? How much is too much homework?
Here at our house, we are looking forward to summer break....well, to be honest, the kids are super excited for summer. I'm more concerned with how to fill the days and keep a modicum of peace between 3 children of 3 different ages that want to do exactly 3 different things all at the same time.
As for the fall, Jay and I have decided NOT to send Trey to preschool. It never, ever crossed my mind as a whisper of a thought that someday I would have to decide that I won't send my child to school because I don't know if he'll live through the year. What a horrible place to be. My resolve was stronger when we made the decision, though it has weakened in the past couple of weeks. Seeing posts about a child's preschool graduation or a parent's excitement and anticipation of signing their child up for preschool are vivid reminders. Plus, seeing Trey today, no one would guess that he's so sick...he would do wonderfully at school TODAY. I have to remind myself that we just don't know what life will be like in the up coming months. His CT scan THIS Monday could change the whole look of this summer.
When Bella finished preschool, I didn't mentally prepare myself for it being the last time. I didn't close that door in my mind because Baby Trey had made his way onto the scene and in a few short years, he'd be running the show Tuesday and Thursday mornings from 9:00 - 11:30. I knew when Trey was done nursing that it would (most likely) be the last time. I even made a blog post when we got rid of our trusty high chair. I said my good bye's to the pack n' play, bouncy chairs and rattle toys. I was ready to move on. I wasn't ready to be done with preschool and tiny back packs and name tags on string necklaces.
I know, though, that this is the right decision! I believe that. There were far more reasons that we came up with to keep him home with us rather than send him. And, if we find ourselves in the fall of 2013 needing to sign Trey up for Kindergarten, well then, praise the Lord! We praise Him today for the reassurance that no matter what, this is the right decision for all of us right now.
"Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: 'For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.' No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." ~Romans 8:35-39